Constant Battle

It was a constant battle
I was fighting myself
A fight I could never win
It went on and on

I declared a war on my body
For many, many years
I refused to see it
as my own

I locked up my soul
Put my spirit in chains
I choked my voice
Couldn’t breathe

I lived many years in darkness
Many years, forgotten
I never gave myself a break
Always fighting
Always playing games

Until the point of breaking down
I couldn’t fight anymore
So I let someone fight for me
And I lost all control over me

I needed to let go
I needed to surrender
And I did

And then there you were
You found me
Just when I regained my power
And you gave me a magnifying boost

I see the world in colors again
Our colors, they shine brightly
They make everything better
So very gentle, lovingly

It was a constant battle
But we won, love won
I am done fighting
And so it ends